Age-defying...
I don't know how old I am.
Seriously.
I have to do a quick mental arithmetic involving the numbers 1976 and 2008 before I can conclude that yes, I will be 32 this summer. I just spent an entire week thinking I was due to turn 33. So in one of the longest weeks of my life I actually gained a whole year. Nifty.
This is going to sound weird, but I think the reason for my age confusion isn't so much the usual denial thing but more because a whole bunch of insane insanity kicked off right around my 30th birthday and consequently little pieces of my brain got frozen in time at that point. To this day I still feel like I never did the whole 30th birthday hoopla thing. I feel a little like I missed out on that milestone.
This summer also marks our 10th wedding anniversary. Yep, I got married that young and no it didn't cross my mind that I was too young at the time.
It's funny to feel like we were just there, getting married and being young and believing we could change the world, and then all of a sudden we're here, and the world remains pretty much unchanged. Unlike us. Although we bought cheap rings believing that we'd upgrade them in a few years when our cashflow changed and um, that's another thing that also remains pretty much unchanged. How completely bizarre to think that the next ten years might fizz past in the same blurry way. I hope not. I want to slow it all down, savour it, suck the juice out of each moment.
I also go my first grey hair this week but that's probably to be expected. Besides my hair has done this weird life-of-its-own thing since I accidentally became a brunette. At first it was black, then it went kind of chestnut brown and I was worried about how the roots would look when they grew out blonde. Except that never happened and now I have this weird look going on. It's a bit chamelon-like - not quite blonde and not quite brown but I suspect if I lightened it it would look similarly natural as it does now, several months and much re-growth on from the hair-dye horror. I'm toying with the idea of belatedly celebrating my 30th birthday on my 32nd birthday with an afternoon in a hair salon until I emerge with sunkissed locks and looking not a day over 29.
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I too have to try and work out my age with years!!
I'm 22 and Im getting married in 6 weeks. Perfect timning me thinks! x